Shiny car is not meant to be seen in dark

What ever decision that I made I will never be regret.
I'll only find myself stupid
There is no wrong to look back into the past to recall something but don't stop too long,
Cause the earth will keep on turning no matter what
Connie is my name and 19 this year. My life is just too dramatic till no ones will believe it. =]
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wild days
Past.//
October 26, 2010 @ 1:47 AM


As always drawing is not my thing. My hand is just not meant for it. But somehow i remember last year because of a guy entered my world for the very first time. I started drawing a rose and making a card for him putting all my effort into it. But in the end I get nothing but heart break.

Last year is just a disaster year for me. Lots of thing happened. But when come to think of the happy moment that i and him went through it making me smile - last time there is no guy done those thing before to me. But now when you ask me back do I still have feeling toward him? Well the answer obviously will be no. Cheated on me twice no matter how good I am, I wont give him a second chance. after that no matter what kinda guy comes near me surely there will be a wall surrounding me. I wish to protect myself from them, from the people just like him.

Right now there is someone I like, I adore, I treasure a lot. But due to some circumferences I got to let go, got to give up. This guy is cute, funny in his own way. Lots of people telling me, he is good, even his friend said so. But sadly I can't choose him. He do say thing that make me wanna hug him last night, but..well things are always like this, they don't go according to what we have planned. I maybe be stupid to give up on you but I'm sure you will be better off without me. Heart break or any sad feeling just leave it to me. Let me have all of them. Is ok. I have used to it. I have immune to it.