He pushes me away when I though of just wanna wave my hand to him only. Cause I saw him talking in the phone. At that time the feeling comes again. This time can say is just mild. SO i just continuous to play with my bro. Cause thats the least thing I can do to distract myself. Went back and he came sitting beside me apologizing. I have no idea what on earth is happening. Tears feel like coming out. So I just ran out. Later on we have a face to face talk. He talked a lot of things to me. Even hug me and apologize.
But some how i'm just tired. Is like I don't want situation to be like this. The reason I protect him is because I don't wish to see this happen, also I get what he feel. Why can't you just do like me. Put yourself in his shoe?? Is it that hard. Tell you what. You want me to do something then please at least tell me the reason. You don't tell me the reason then you command me to do. How can I follow blinding??