In my previous life, i'm always the one who got control by other especially when comes to love life. Really sick and tired of that. In here i'm like immune to all the love feeling. Toward anyone I'm just having the friendship feeling and not more than that. When i think back to last time. I'm really IS a childish person. who ever treat me better a bit then i'm just like that person and i thought thats love. Coming here make me realize something. That is love is NOT everything. Without love i still can survive better. I just hope time will stop at this very moment. But in the meantime i miss all my old friend too. This kinda feeling really confusing. Both side also have friend. Sometime i have to abandon some of them form others. =\ really hard for me. but still what to do.